My Fears

Good Morning,
my fears regarding God's plan for me, start in Modesto. Getting to Modesto is not the problem. The problem lies when i get then. Im scared to death of what it is that i actually have to do when i get there. I feel as though I have no clue about what im doing, so how am i suppose to do i. But like Moses, I have been called there. When Moses was called to go to Egypt God went with him every step of the way and helped to accomplish what it was that God wanted him to do. I can only pray and trust that God will do the same for me. Not only when i get there, but also along the way. With the things that I want to accomplish before I get there, I need God's help. I need Him to lead me.
So the 4 things that I mentioned at the beginning of this are
1. Approval
2. Graduation
3. Weight
4. Money

The past couple of days i have had a break through with both money and weight. I went to the doctors on Wed. and talked with my doctor about trying to become a healthier version of myself. She said that I could join Curves, and should go swimming too. Which im excited about. So i went to Curves yesterday and made an appointment to go in on monday to try everything out. The other thing my doctor and I talked about was food, because I don't really eat all of the right foods, but im working on that. So ya, she basically said to continue eatting the way i am eatting, but change my portion size. I am also taking it upon myself to eat more fruits and veggies. YAY. Last night when I went out to eat with my roommate, i was able to look at the plate of pasta, and decide that I only wanted to eat part of it, not all of it. and I did. I was very proud of myself. I also have not been eatting late at night, which i think will help. Now i just have to get to the exersize part of my diet. jaja... maybe soon I can do that.
The other thing that has gone well, is that I came back to MA, and I got myself back into my babysitting job. YAY! If i can do alot of work for her, I am going to do that. I am also thinking about maybe getting a housekeeping, under the table sort of job, and whatever I make from that I want to put into my saving account, and put what I make babysitting into my checking. (I don't have much a choice, given that its a direct deposit into my checking. :-p). well thats it for now. off to work. I don't want to be late. See ya'll laters.