Peacemaker... is that my new official role in the house? When all i want is to just have a calm peaceful night with everyone seems to fight. I don't want to get involved in the problems that exist between other people. And there just seems to be alot of underlying problems that continue to work themeselves out as other things arise. Not that i am part of some of the problems, I am just trying to make that different this semester. This semester I want to be a solution, even if that means just being on the outside and not getting involved. Last semester it was easier because i wasn't sharing a room with anyone. Now tonight i felt like i got peged because of the fact that i share a room. I feel as though everyone has valid concerns, it just is not really communicated, and some people just haven't grown up, and others have.
I was home again, alone for a long time. Lonely doesn't really describe how it went. I wasn't very lonely, i was pretty productive, and it was restful, until others came home. What I did enjoy was that I was able to eat today,and not over eat. I loved it. It is satisfying to know that I have the will power to say no. now that I am talking about it, i am getting a lil hungry. But, there is no eatting until tomorrow morning.
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